One year ago yesterday, I lost my former fiancé, Jason. Yesterday I tried to fill my day with as much diversion as possible...and of course, the pain of grief bit me HARD today. I actually caught myself distancing from reality a few times, and had to end my work day early to focus on taking care of myself. No one tells you this, but there is NO time limit on grief. It is impossible to try to put a cap on it. Sometimes we try to avoid dealing with the pain so we can “look okay” while we try to function. But the truth is that ignoring the pain only delays the process further. After losing Jason, I believe that surviving simply means riding the waves of pain, anger and sadness as they come. No, it’s not easy. No, some people won’t understand. Yes, I am sure that some people are sick of hearing about this. But no, I am not sorry for feeling the way I feel. I am sharing this because social media seems to be a curated version of others’ lives and at times it can leave us all feeling a bit simple or inadequate. My hope is that by sharing something honest and real, perhaps someone will feel less alone. Life isn’t always perfectly plated food or vacation pictures. Today, my focus is on self-care and processing my grief. I am taking this one day at a time.
Are you serious, @target? This isn’t cute or funny. People who lived 45 minutes to an hour away from my home in the state of California lost their lives, homes, pets, etc. in wildfires recently. In some areas, I can still smell smoke. This isn’t something you needed to carry in stores. Let’s not glorify or remind people of the suffering others have endured just to make a $16.99 sale.
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#target #badtaste #offensive #notfunny #californiawildfires #notcute
